People have asked why I don’t blog as much anymore. I got tired of fighting. I got cussed out once- yeah once by a parent who told me I had no right to say anything because I wasn’t autistic enough. My kid wasn’t autistic enough.
That shit hurts. Not that I even know what autistic enough means or I want to be more autistic or less autistic. But that I write to help others understand. My son can SOMETIMES tell me what the sensory issues are like. I can tell you how the lights burn my eyes. Perhaps these things can help someone who has a completely non verbal. And honestly sometimes I didn’t even say all that I was thinking. I cannot lie but I have learned to hold back. Sometimes I wanted to tell people that they were causing some of the issues in their kids- there I said it. I know you mean well but sometimes we can cause our kids to feel worse. To react worse. To have a meltdown. Anyways I got tired of fighting.
I don’t claim to speak for anyone because I don’t know what anyone feels but I only hope my writings would help someone else to understand. I am on facebook as the real me (that sounds kind of odd but yeah, you know) anyways I try not to get too deep into the autism community but I do stay on the fringes. I just don’t want to get sucked in. Today this was on my newsfeed and I am so glad that I stayed on the fringe. This is awesome and made me feel a little better about sharing my stories. This kind of made me laugh and want to say FUCK YOU to the evil parent that cussed me out. She clearly wouldn’t listen to her child and I was very nice & actually didn’t tell her that she was making the behaviors worse. Maybe she read my blog and thought that was what I was saying. Oh well. I really hate to know how her child is doing. I pray she listened to someone and her child is doing better than he was doing.